Some days,
it feels like this is such a long and lonely battle
that it doesn’t really matter why we do what we do
like we’re stuck on a enormous ferris wheel sized hamster wheel.
Some days,
it seems like everyone else is having so much fun
going on big vacations {again}
eating at fancy restaurants {again}
at the movie theater {again}
going to a fun concert {again}
while we eat peanutbutter and jelly and read books from the library at home on the couch.
Some days,
I get jealous of new laptops, pretty clothes, well decorated homes, and iPhones
I envy mini-vans, date nights where you hire a babysitter, and nice towels
I long for Starbucks purchased without a giftcard, new running shoes, and pedicures.
Some days,
I snuggle in bed with the Princesses under a well worn and torn blanket {and I am content}
I spend time munching on homemade popcorn and watching a movie on our hand-me-down TV with the King of Free {and I am content}
I receive encouragement on my not very smart phone via text or a call from a friend {and I am content}
I feast on zucchini grown in our garden {and I am content}
I play in our homemade sprinkler with the Princesses and the King of Free {and I am content}
I realize how many adventures we’ve gone on and how many blessings we’ve received since we began our journey {and I am content}
I count the days until our battle will be finished, the amounts we have paid off this year and since the very beginning {and I am content}
{and overwhelmed by God’s grace, blessing, and goodness}
$105,936.48 since April 2008. 9 . . . more . . . months. We CAN do this.
You can, too.
